Hi my Wino family. I'm not writing from my desk at Pollyanna World today because for once I am TRULY not feeling like a Pollyanna. Most of you know that I have a dystrophy that is affecting my neck and my ability to swallow. I was originally told that I had multiple vitamin deficiencies and started a regimen of vitamins that Tasha K suggested that greatly helped. But as test results started coming back, and after seeing multiple specialists, my hubby and I got the news that it's either MS (which is better), then we were told it's more than likely ALS. So, I've been waiting to see a specialist within the speciality field of Neurology.

Well, earlier today I found out that after waiting over 6 months for my appointment in November, it was canceled and rescheduled for February 24, 2026. This is the direct result of this administration's interference in providing care for the elderly and disabled. You see, next year there may not be funding for critical care for Medicare/Medicaid and the health professionals in the states surrounding me are waiting to see which way the wind blows before seeing patients. Meanwhile, I'm not getting the care needed to slow down the progression of the damaging effects on my body.

For the 1st time, I cannot find my smile or happy place. Y'all know I try my best to uplift everyone with a kind word, but I can't find it for myself right now. This is me being transparent, stating that depression has hit me like a cave-in without a sliver of daylight. I'll ask for help for anyone other than myself because I feel like there are people who have it worse out here. And I don't believe any platform should be used as a personal diary, but I'm scared because I've gotten so physically weak that it's hard for me to even stand long, let alone walk. Through all of this, I seek and find blessings, so feeling depressed is a foreign concept. So I'm reaching out to my Wino Nation Soldiers to send up well-wishes, thoughts and prayers, not only for my brother-in-law and his battle with his rights being violated, but now, also for me. I can't tell you the last time I have cried for anything dealing with me, but today I'm having a meltdown like Chernobyl. I'm lost. Please pray that the healthcare I so desperately need will be available for the upcoming year. Thank you all. Peace and blessings ~Born