***From My Desk in Pollyanna World 🌎***

DISCLAIMER: I'M NOT TRYING TO START NOTHING AND I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED!

Greetings Wino Family! I came off of my social media hiatus refreshed and salivating for our next Zoom. I started catching up on Tasha via YouTube and skipped into the app to watch the corresponding, uncensored version and tried to read some of the community board only to find that we're on punishment!?!? I really don't want to know what happened. I think by now that everyone knows hearing my sisters, brothers, aunties, uncles, cousins, etc, has helped me heal and kept me encouraged, entertained, and loved on from afar. This was more than a community to me...this felt like the big once a year family reunion that you look forward to except it was every week and I didn't have to dress up. I don't speak to everyone but I loved the way we spoke about different things and the way my mind expanded just listening to all of you.

Then I heard TKLIVE (Tasha) fell ill and I wanted her to hear my voice saying that I've been praying for her. I wanted everyone to hear how hard I've been working with OT and Speech Therapy because all of you fill me with light, love, and energy. Because of ALL of you, I'm almost back to my normal voice. I wanted to thank y'all personally with my non-scratchy voice that's at least 88-90% better, but I can't. I missed my family and I come back to no Zoom and no feeling of closeness. I just want to know can we fix it. I don't want to hear nothing but solutions and promises to be better because I miss y'all and I'm sad. So, Cheick and TKL TKLIVE can this be salvaged where our love can once again be heard on varying topics that starts with a jumbled, "Hey Tasha, hey Mods, hey Winos"? I promise to pour light and positivity into the space, and be more involved than previously if need be. I know I'm old, or older than maybe the majority, but y'all kept me young. I'm beseeching, not begging and if the answer is no, I'll accept it, grudgingly, but with understanding. TO EVERY WINO I MISS AND LOVE Y'ALL EVEN IF WE DON'T HAVE A MORE PERSONAL CONNECTION. I put that in all caps so that all of you know that came from my bone marrow and spirit, and that I stand 10 toes down on that! OK, I'm going back to the front porch on my rocking chair and pray Mrs. Clara sits down quietly beside me hopefully one day soon, and say, "Honeychile what are we gonna do with them folks down dere by the basketball courts whooping and hollering playing that loud music that's gonna make 'em deaf by 18," as she passes me a cold glass of fresh lemonade. On that day I'll know ALL is well. Peace, light, and blessings Family, one Wino to another. Always Elder Born2Speak, because today for the 1st time in a long time, I feel old all the way down to my bones. 🙏🏾 💖

***From My Desk in Pollyanna World 🌎***

Caution Advised-May Be A Trigger Warning

Greetings my Wino Family! I just wanted to give you guys an update. I had to go back into the hospital this past Tuesday. Now don't forget I was just in there but they couldn't find anything wrong. So I went home feeling alright but not back to the vicinity of my normal. I suffered for a few days and over this past weekend, and finally had enough! I drove further out and went to a different hospital system and they immediately found out that I had 2, and I mean TWO, kidney stones 19 mm or more each. My kidney and surrounding organs were so infected that I had emergency surgery yesterday (Wednesday) morning to add a stent to my left kidney to allow the infection and clots to be removed and/or drained. The next part makes zero sense to me!

Now, I get to go home, in pain, urinating blood clots and blood with my urine. But then, insert fanfare music🎶 here, in approximately 7-8 days, I get to go through outpatient surgery and have the 2 very large, and extremely painful stones removed surgically the same way they put in the stent, which will aggravate the same area a 2nd time, causing more scar tissue, blood clots, and bleeding. Why they didn't just remove the kidney stones during the 1st surgery is anyone's guess, but to me, it seems like a money grab. Just pray that your wino sister, aunty, cousin, friend, etc, gets out of this in 1 piece, because Mrs. Pollyanna is depleted emotionally and physically, plus a heffa is trying to stay hydrated but some of my electrolytes are way too low. The crazy thing is that my WBC was normal and my body showed zero signs of infection until the surgeon went in.

It's 9:15 am my time, and I'm praying that I shall be loosed upon the world between noon and 2 pm!...even if it's only to my own home. I'm praying that everyone has a wonderful day, be kind to one another, and be the blessing you want reflected in your direction. Let love lead and guide you!!

Peace and blessings,

~Born